If you’ve been reading my blog (or following me on any form of social media) for any length of time, you might be aware that I struggle with bipolar disorder, chronic depression, and anxiety.
I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder on three different occasions, but never sought regular therapy or took consistent medication for it… I’ve now learned this is “typical” for bipolar folks.
As for anxiety, I’ve never been “officially” diagnosed with any anxiety disorders, however I’m not sure if this is necessary… Sort of common sense, no?
Anyway, in recent months, it’s become apparent to me, as I’ve been focusing on building my coaching business, that I really have trouble focusing on one thing at a time. This results in working on a ton of different things all day, every day, but never really accomplishing much!
Talk about frustrating, to be so exhausted each day and have spent all your energy working on things, and realize that you haven’t completed anything you set out to do. 🙁
So, I’ve been wondering for about 8 months now, if this is actually Attention Deficit Disorder or Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder, but I guess I’ve been in denial. More and more though, it’s reared its ugly head and I am fed up, so I have to get it figured out.
I jokingly refer to this problem as “shiny object syndrome,” and it seems so clear to me now, that this inability to focus, in addition to the bipolar disorder, is exactly what has caused me to be so inconsistent with EVERYTHING all my life!!
School, jobs, relationships, my fitness journey, and now my business – Wow, how did I not notice before?! Heck it’s been this way since I was a teen!
Currently, I’m able to stay on track with my health & fitness journey by dabbling in the various fitness programs available via Beachbody on Demand, and participating in my challenge groups each month; but the business aspect is where I am not keeping my head quite above water the way I’d like.
My business is really important to me, because it means I am earning freedom
from my corporate job, and I get to empower others to achieve their fitness and financial goals too! I can’t risk failure just because I don’t know how to cope – Fortunately there are ways of feeling with this stuff!
Last week, I had an initial counseling session with a psychologist and gave him the general overview of these problems. I went in there, thinking I would just talk about my suspected ADD or ADHD, but as he asked a few basic questions, I started to see how the anxiety, bipolar, and attention deficit issues all sort of play off of each other!
Isn’t that incredible, how the different pieces of our existence all come together to create LIFE and you end up with MEMORIES?
I’m so excited to get started and get some answers!
Also, I would love to hear from you if you struggle with ADD, ADHD, or a general lack of focus (aka “Shiny Object Syndrome) 🙂
Until next time,